victoria
christian
eighteen
17th May 1990

Psalm 51:12
Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit,
to sustain me.

Proverbs 16:9
In his heart a man plans his course,
but the LORD determines his steps.




BIO 190A Final Exam - 14 Dec 09
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i feel so angry. in tears angry. why can't you just let me do something, why can't you just trust me.
i am already 19. 19. i know what i am doing. i have a brain. i'm not a sheltered ungrateful singaporean. why cant you just see that. why cant you just listen to the things i tell you. for one second. just listen. listen. and trust me. you make me cry so violently. because you don't take the effort to understand me. you're always too busy. that you can't even read my email, the whole thing. and you ask me to email you, that's the best part. i don't like this. i hate myself for talking to you that way, but i just wished you listened to me. and trusted me enough. I am in Canada... and i'm living. I've found my way around. Myself. I do things myself. I don't need someone else to go first then I will go, i can just step out and do it myself. i found a church because i just went to one. people are not things that if i don't have i cant't do anything... i have to stop. i must stop. because it hurts. i love you. but you make me feel all... red inside. and yet, you're all i have. to talk to... home.

You keep me safe in a crazy world.
1:38 p.m.