scribbles/ Thursday, October 29, 2009
i wish
you were here.
i wish i could tell you all the things i wanted to say
right now, when they happen, where they happen
what happened
i wish it was
back to normal again
whatever normal is
i don't even know
i wish i didn't feel this way
its a id-ego struggle
if only if only
=) remembering the good times always feels better than thinking about now.
You keep me safe in a crazy world.
12:56 p.m.
scribbles/ Tuesday, October 20, 2009
its amazing how much more you learn about yourself as you grow... older?
how about just as you grow, day by day.
looking back to the past, looking ahead to the future, dealing with the present.
and all that jazz inbetween.
its interesting.
Alexander II has been an awesome companion! =D (aka. Katie's guitar)
have been playing and practiving everyday, at the start or end of the day.
its been awesome =), my fingers hurt but who cares..
wow...
self-awareness is really kicking in for me in so many areas in my life right now...
in everything i do and say.
its amazing what university does to you.
i don't think i've ever talked so much to myself in my whole life...
or realised so many things for that fact.
as far as experience goes, its been an interesting one so far.
A glooming peace this morning with it brings;
The sun, for sorrow, will not show his head:
Go hence, to have more talk of these sad things;
Some shall be pardon'd, and some punished:
For never was a story of more woe
Than this of Juliet and her Romeo.
You keep me safe in a crazy world.
1:15 p.m.
scribbles/ Tuesday, October 13, 2009
there is no beauty in the silence.
You keep me safe in a crazy world.
11:48 p.m.
"the answer my friend, is blowin' in the wind
the answer is blowin' in the wind." - bob dylan
if only the wind could speak of stories near and far.
sorrow, happiness, joy, love, tears - all swept away and carried by the wind
the wind blows to where it chooses
and where is chooses no one knows
cold wind rustles the trees here outside my window
i wonder what they its trying to tell me
to stay in?
and hear the electric guitar shredding below
to do my work early to relax for the upcoming week
to prepare for the rainy week ahead
to warn me of what's the come
where winds blow strong and wild
winter's coming. november's coming.
another month.
and my foot is numb.
something's gonna come.
You keep me safe in a crazy world.
8:04 a.m.
scribbles/ Friday, October 09, 2009
its amazing how you think about so many things while studying in a cafeteria.
i love studying in the centre caf. its the best. its got the buzz, i can talk to myself and say something to make me remember and no one cares because they're eating. i observe people too... i hear and listen to people... (occasionally picking out a singaporean accent here and there amazingly, picked up a thai one once in the caf across where i was sitting)
the psyc 100B exam was so good. i studied for it, prepared... felt so great. but im kinda loosing steam and i've got like my psyc 100A exam this friday... tomorrow... MORNING... argh.
feeling so lazy right now. but im half motivated. HALF. i really hope i get my act together tonight.
today at bio study group... you know what i wont even go there. it was good... but... big BUT...
(takes a deep breath of air)
youth culture has been on my mind recently. its... sad... its... annoying me.
i feel like my ears are hurting everytime i hear the word "f***" more than what... 10 times in a day. 10's like an under estimate i'd say, its a good day if its between 10 and 20. i have never (in my entire life) heard people talk about sex so much and so openly.
this is just conversation, haven't haven't moved into practice.
i know that i'm not going to assimilate into the culture. i am not going to try and fit in.
but that doesn't mean that i cant be part of the youth.
i'm just talking abt it like real quickly... because i've got psyc to study...
but its just.. ah..
God must be crying every night to see the youth in this state.
You keep me safe in a crazy world.
7:19 a.m.
scribbles/ Saturday, October 03, 2009
the more you love someone the more you want to kill them...
i so know that feeling...
i wish i didnt feel it...
because i really love them... or rather her... or them... them all...
i wish i wasnt so... annoyed and irritated.
let me be... but i want you to be here too... but i want you to let me be.
deep breath.
You keep me safe in a crazy world.
2:50 p.m.
