scribbles/ Saturday, February 21, 2009
the one thing i really hate is that i hate to be angry.
and because of hate i'm angry. which makes it even worse.
i hate the fact that im angry because of hate.
argh
i pray, seriously, that i can let this go.
but how can you?!?! HOW?!?...
You keep me safe in a crazy world.
5:36 p.m.
scribbles/ Tuesday, February 17, 2009
2nd day working in church haha and its been not bad =)
today's task - clean the sticker stains in the toilet and lift with GOO GONE haha! amazing stuff
if anyone sticks anything anywhere again... i'll get them to clean it up themselves haha!
today, i spent sometime preparing the material for the sec 1 CG this coming sunday. was reading the passage abt matthew/levi who followed Jesus and they ate with the sinners etc. (ref. Matt 9:9-13) and looking at some bible study websites and all.
bible history can be quite interesting actually. and today one thing that i've learnt would be that Jesus offered forgiveness and didn't care whether the people he ate with were sinners or not. i guess its important to know that we can't stay within our own cliques, e.g. like always stay with out church friends and stuff. we have to mix with other people out there. to show the love that Jesus gave us to others. to demonstrate that love. yeah haha.
quite cool actually. go read. its barely the length of your baby finger...
anyway... still contemplating whether to run or not later...hmmm
You keep me safe in a crazy world.
5:49 p.m.
scribbles/ Friday, February 13, 2009
hilarious happening of the day:
AC boy checking himself (HIMSELF!) out in the mrt...
plus dancing and singing to himself...
(pause...)
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA
i really tried to stop myself from laughing on the mrt because he was right in front of me.
hahahaha
You keep me safe in a crazy world.
8:03 p.m.
this one week break has really been such a blessing =)
i've left Asia Travel last friday and am going to start interning in church next week, and i just feel so excited. There's so many things lined up for 2009. i was so right when i knew it was going to be such a great year. can't wait to see what God has in store.
i've been taking each morning slowly. breakfast, reading the bible, journaling... enjoying the morning breeze and the sun coming in, bringing warmth to a chilly morning. i really love my mornings. 8am is not a too early time, its just the RIGHT time to start the perfect day. rain or shine. and you just look out the window and you see God's creation, wow... =) calm trees, the blue sky... need i say more.
work really just takes away that precious time that you have. work as well as other things too... in my case. maybe that's what it means to rest on sundays. to spend time with God. to just... be with Him and in his presence. to put aside all that is work and just... relax.
doesn't seem true in the busy world today...
there is one thing about this week that really... changed my perspective of things. i'll keep it nice and short (if i can...), and it'll be quite vague since the details are... confidential (haha)
i went out with a friend on tuesday night. as always meeting this friend is a blast. we talk, we zoom back into the past and talk about the present and look ahead to the future of what is to come. and for the first time (or maybe the second) we talked more about God and Christianity in general. my favourite verse and lots of other stuff. you see, this friend means... almost the world to me. and i've been always trying to figure out what this friend has been thinking for the longest time about the friendship that we've has for the past... 8 years or so.
when i went home that night, i was, again, having all these thoughts in my head. "what do you think about our friendship?" "what do i mean to you" etc.
notice the "I" in those questions.
and then i just starting thinking through our conversation over dinner... and immediately my focus shifted. and then suddenly, the burning questions of "what do you think about me" etc. just...faded into the background. and new questions came to mind: what do you think about God? what does He mean to you? what does Jesus mean to you?
and from that point, it just didn't matter anymore, what my friend thought about me.
i really pray and hope that this friend comes to experience God for himself.
and i really thank God that... i've found a way to move from here. to move out of the madness of trying to figure out another person. and i would really want to see this person come to know Christ, more than anything. =) its really been an answered prayer to find a way to move on.
anyway, i gotta go to bed. got to wake up EARLY to spend the awesome morning with an awesome God =D
and yes to those ppl out there who have commented... i will try to blog more frequently...
TRY. the inspiration must come... maybe i should write a poem soon...
no inspiration lah! hahaha =D chao
You keep me safe in a crazy world.
12:28 a.m.
