victoria
christian
eighteen
17th May 1990

Psalm 51:12
Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit,
to sustain me.

Proverbs 16:9
In his heart a man plans his course,
but the LORD determines his steps.




BIO 190A Final Exam - 14 Dec 09
Christmas! - 25 December
Back to school - 4 Jan 09

friendship
friend-ship
maybe its a journey with much turbulence that's why you need a 'ship' at the end of 'friend'
well its a heck of a journey
different ones
easy ones with calm waters
rocky ones with constant whirl pools and hurricanes
but the ship still sails
slowly but surely
what kind of waters are you?

feelings
ugh how i hate them
one minute you feel something the next you have to diminish it and put out the flame
i seriously don't know how this fire (maybe even a small flame) still exists
the chances to pour water all over it and make sure it was extinguished never happened
the pail was always next to the fire but untouched till this day
why? i loathe the question
i just want to know what sparked the spark to the flame
what's even fueling this undying flame
what? what!? what...
and then hopefully i'll be able to put out the light

recently the skies have been more beautiful
the moon shines brighter than ever before and the stars take after it
the clouds shape themselves into fluffy ponies
and i imagine them to be soft pillows
ah i love God's creation
is there anything more beautiful?

how sharp can a needle get when its been sharpened?
can a needle be sharpened?
i knew it would hurt
i know its hurting
i know it will hurt again
small holes they make
and the blood oozes out
slowly,
how long will it be before the small makes a big
and then the blood splatters, erupts
and ruins the heart
wouldn't you so love it
thank God for the heart of steel that still feels

light, oh light!
thank you for shining in
its never been this bright
well there were brighter days
now its just...getting dimmer
but still its brighter
its like the light in the living room - too bright
but i like it
hopefully the light doesn't blind

"Restore to me the joy of your salvation and grant me a willing spirit, to sustain me"
Psalm 51:12

You keep me safe in a crazy world.
10:07 p.m.