victoria
christian
eighteen
17th May 1990

Psalm 51:12
Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit,
to sustain me.

Proverbs 16:9
In his heart a man plans his course,
but the LORD determines his steps.




BIO 190A Final Exam - 14 Dec 09
Christmas! - 25 December
Back to school - 4 Jan 09

i wish that last night wouldn't end
hahaha lynette shares the same sentiments as myself =D

last night was there was a get together at my place for the people who play touch rug haha. you could call it a touch rug/ruggers bbq haha yeah. it was just soo fun.
everyone was all sleeeeeepy at my house haha! now boon understands why i sleep at 10 pm =D.
james was especially having fun with my sister haha both of them had a Bluff (cardgame) showdown and finally james gave in (YES!) haha just kidding.
eddy & lynette especially loved the trampoline when we went down to play haha. and eddy was whining and all about him being sick and might not be coming hahaha.
(if you notice im laughing A LOT but it was so fun so i can't help but...LAUGH)
and this..the HIGHLIGHT. everyone...when they came in they commented on the photos on the walls...yes yes cute i know...yes. =) but its a little embarrassing too heh.
and of course jia yu's bday cake haha (was on the 27th)! and then everyone watched soccer at the end before they all left. they left before midnight!!!!

ah great party. HAVE TO DO IT AGAIN! at least we did it before the guys go to army and stuff, those who are going of course haha. (boon, james, eddy, domanic) yup.

hope you guys enjoyed yourselves! =D

today i went to church. met victor before that at about 9. so you can imagine how tired i was in the morning...after the party and all. zonk out! talked and all, he gave me my christmas present too! so nice of him.

went to church. you don't know HOW happy i was to have entered the sanctuary today. i felt like i haven't been to church in ages. (well 2 weeks...ages =D) and i just felt so happy. so ready for worship! nothing makes me happier than such moments. and i don't think i've prayed to God like i did today in a long time. wow. =)
"Today, today, its all or nothing
all the way
my praise goes out to You
yeah all the praise goes out to You
in everything i do
yeah all the praise goes out to YOU!"
and sermon. it was not bad too! uncle han khim was sharing on how we should be renewing out hearts and mind this coming new year! and we have to boot out and kill off all the evil inside of us. i can tell that 2008 will be quite an exciting year and i'll be waiting to see what God has for me next year!

Next year next year next year...
a levels, musical, touch rug, school, studies, outbreak, alpha, 79, undignified!!!, 2s10, dried mangoes from joelyn!, new year. lots and lots and lots hahaha etc.

im going crazy over Annie videos now haha. the 1982 version of the musical/movie. its GREAT. watch it if you can haha my favourite song is You're Never Fully Dressed Without A Smile =D.

oh oh and and MEL bought for me an alicia keys cd! the latest one. thanks mela wela. my bestest bestest haha =D cheers to all the years of friendship and may we grow in faith together!

tomorrow's new years eve.
new year's eve. it reminds me of the movie The Holiday. you know when jack black and jude law spends new years eve with the girls haha. romance haha ah..such a sucker for it!

well tomorrow's the day.

note to self: finish GP homework AT LEAST!

You keep me safe in a crazy world.
10:46 p.m.

i have not posted in AGES.
ah well haha.
always wanted to but just didn't feel like doing it at that moment.

soo much is on my mind right now.
soo much is going to come up.
soo much is happening.

the guilt

the irrelevance

the annoyance

the fading
the wanting

the curiosity

the agony

the fear

the excitement

its just too much to handle.

i came back from krabi/bangkok a few days ago and have been in school for orientation stuff these past 2 days. its been...hectic? and i haven't finished my school work AT ALL.
and i have not revised.
i'm not joking.
i'm not mugging at home like i do in school if that's what you guys think hahaha!
christmas was kinda cool haha =) i got this really cool pendant from my aunt.

its just SO nice.

and now onto some issues...

you. i really don't know what to say. seriously. she's told me to take you out to lunch but i just can't do it. i just can't. i don't want to stir up anything. to me we're friends and that's all what i want to be. but the guilt of saying that to you. i don't know why i think this much but really, i just can't do it. i mean... its really sweet of you and all but...but. i don't know what to do with you.

you. i'm just SO annoyed. i don't know why but you give me this feeling. this FEELING. i am (or maybe was) your friend. are you really trying too hard to please? that's what it looks like to me. i already drained myself of any negative thoughts i have of you AND i've lightened up. have you? i honestly don't know. really. i don't know. i don't want to be bother but i can't help but be bothered.

You. i don't know why i'm slipping away. my time spent with You is just decreasing so much. it used to be more. but that time was still so little. sunday is just NOT ENOUGH. i want to believe. i want to. so much. songs are empty if you dont believe. i pray that i may not fall out.

you. i'm so so so sorry for being so rude. i dont know why im so rude to you sometimes. sigh. i guess you just shoot at the people you're closest too. but sometimes you can just be soo annoying and irritating. but you see if i am rude i know you have a hard time because you also have another rude one to deal with. i dont want to be.

you. i miss you so much. i havent talked to you in ages. AGES. i mean i saw you and all but no talk. i mean we practically know each other so well. but i dont know how you are now. ever since i came out of high, i havent seen you. i dont know if you like it now. it seems like you're having fun. but i don't know. fun? i want you to be happy.

(please do not assume you are the "you". this is not for the "you"s anyway.
this is for me to just let it out in the vaugest way possible)

and a last one! hahaha

you!!! you promised me dinner at Blooie's tonight! tsk tsk tsk. hahaha
so much for that hahaha..

ah. all (kinda) let out.

holiday homework...AHHHH...
my nightmare.

chao =D

You keep me safe in a crazy world.
7:55 p.m.

The Calling
Camino Palmero
Two

find. now.

You keep me safe in a crazy world.
2:26 p.m.

guess what! it just rained xD haha yayness. wet muddy field for training. woo.

ahhh i've been stuck at home the whole morning...
i tried to touch bio but it just isn't working.
bio only gets in at night.

my teeth...hurt. yesterday at the orthadontist...she changed my wire for the braces i have to a thicker one...oww-ieeee.
they hurt.
i can't really bite now. and not biting = not being able to eat properly = NOOOOO.
haha i'll live...

marie's concert yesterday was FANTASTIC.
they sang like angels. all of them.
such a fantastic chior.

meeting khalisah before the concert was just HILARIOUS. hahaha we preactically laughed our butts off before the show because...of no. 1 THE BODY SHOP hahaha "don't smell your hand!" followed by both of us smelling ourselves...it sounds so wrong. i know. no. 2 ksah describing poly life. gosh that was a torture hahaha! even victor could give a better description. no. 3 this guy called andre. he... "introduced" himself to us...to everyone actually. and we were wondering if he could go home alright. he looked sooo helpless. but that was after the concert. ah it was fun to see all 3 of them again: khalisah, victor and marie.

had OGL stuff yesterday and i got my hands painted gold and silver...NOT PURPOSELY! (to you ksah!) my nails are still gold and silver cuz i couldnt scrub it off in time. had to rush to the concert so i only had time to scrub off paint from my hands. i had to hold down the dragon template for them to spray paint our dragon onto the placards and all. i think yesterday was a really good start haha. nice designs. now we DESPERATELY need to find a way to finish our banner. its real nice but real complicated. yup. DRACO DRACO HERE WE GO!

ive got so much stuff in dec.
Dates i won't be in Singapore:
1. Church Camp
8 - 11 Dec
Port Dickson, M'sia
2. Krabi/Bangkok holiday trip
15 - 23 Dec
Thailand
anything you guys want???

on top of holidays i've got ogl stuff, training, have to STUDY (i don't know when but soon...), church stuff, 79, OutBreak and lots and lots of other stuff.

Don't we all wish it was always December?

You keep me safe in a crazy world.
12:21 p.m.

so many things are going through my head right now...so so many things.

first...and unfortunately first
mel hopefully you see this. IF you read it.
blue sand is rushing in.
RUSHING IN.
and i can't seem to cap the bottle "ME"
i don't know *twinge*
as always!
why does this always happen to me!
and to julian...if you get this...NO ITS NOT A GOOD THING (although you might think so)
some sand is mixing but the other portion of red is just standing firm
but on the verge of mixing
i know i like purple but its the wrong colour right now...
urgh.
this is just so hard.
(the hard thing is....i'm LETTING the purple mix...)

today's worship at yf was just =) amazing.
i always use the word amazing...it should just be indescribable.
it was extended worship and the theme was "Touching Heaven"
gosh i felt like i was being lifted, it was just so good.
but most importantly...its the relationship with God.
if not, why praise and worship?
yeah haha.
soo amazing.
=)

cg pot luck/time to ourselves!
we ate...lots of food haha and cake.
and then we played Taboo and and AND...
TWISTER!!!
hahaha gosh it was so fun
my quadraceps really hurt from training so i fell over like 3 times!
man hahaha
but it was so fun.
really love my cg peeps.
del, mel, rapheal, jay, jo, tess hahaha these ppl were there from my cg today
Let's set a date for twister again! =D

i NEEED NEEEEEED NEEEEEEEEEEEED to study.
i know i know...call me a mugger.
but seriously.
i'm really worried that i just don't have time to study.
and the A levels aren't exactly the easiest thing in the world.
i know i know....
but i just want to study.
its not like i know all my subjects well.
TIME!

the life of an OGL.
let's not go there hahaha....

that's about it for now...
believe me there's SO much more haha

big brother, tempt me no further

You keep me safe in a crazy world.
11:34 p.m.