victoria
christian
eighteen
17th May 1990

Psalm 51:12
Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit,
to sustain me.

Proverbs 16:9
In his heart a man plans his course,
but the LORD determines his steps.




BIO 190A Final Exam - 14 Dec 09
Christmas! - 25 December
Back to school - 4 Jan 09

i don't like my status now.
i don't like it at all.
AT ALL.
it just sucks.
i've never been at this state EVER.
it sound really bad i know...but its so true.
STOP VIC STOP!
its such a struggle...
i just want it all to stop.
God...help me.

argh.
help...

You keep me safe in a crazy world.
10:29 p.m.

absence does make the heart grow fonder, or the lack of.
its too weird and too..well weird.
more like absence is necessary to sustain and maintain.
*shrug*

interest shifts quickly...that's just so sad.
stop hopping. STOP.

it rained just before rugby today haha PERFECT.
nice wet weather to play haha
the field is all gooey mushy and wet.
hahaha sick.

aeonflux. now that's...wow. haha
sorry i watched pirates of the caribbean and aeonflux back to back last night =D
i like her hair hahaha NO I WONT CUT IT LIKE HER.

ahh boreda. bored..a...

i need to kick myself to study these holidays. i have NOT hit the books yet and am NOT proud of myself. oh wella...soon soon. [like before december?]

i need that flame and passion in me rekindled. its like a half glowing amber. it can either become fully glowing or slowly become dim. i can't stand this.
i want it to be saturday and sunday all day.
that spirit in me.
"a fire consuming all for Your son's holy name"

rekindle my flame.

You keep me safe in a crazy world.
9:49 p.m.

i am (VERY) tempted to cut my hair short.
short messy layered!
i just don't know what to do with it.
i'm bored.
noooooooooooo...
or should i just get a fringe?

its time to revamp my blogskin soon.

You keep me safe in a crazy world.
5:57 p.m.

today so deserves a second blog post =)
today i met my cg (cell group).
and i haven't seen them in ages because i've been at Youth Alpha all this while.
well i'm glad to be back =D youth alpha was good too, but i still do miss my cg.
today it was just jay, delwin, mel, rapheal and i. =D
i'm sure you can tell how happy i am right now to type haha
today delwin shared the message at yf "God. Suffering. Me?"
it was quite interesting haha had to be there to support my CGL!
AND I WONT BE THERE FOR CG RETREAT!
ahhhh
okay hahaha well can't wait for the weeks to come =)
love you guys!

You keep me safe in a crazy world.
11:09 p.m.

ever fall in love with a big brother?

ah days have been so busy. so so busy. so so SO busy.
haha oh well =) its all good.

i haven't eaten decent meals in what...3 days?

i've got lots to do too:
1. math tutorials (vectors 3 & maclaurin's series)
2. chem tutorials (intro to organic chem & alkanes)
3. bio tutorials (photosynthesis & respiration)
4. read the NEXT 5 chpts of Pride and Prejudice for lesson
which isn't condsidered work actually because the story is so good =D haha
THE romance novel. wheeee hahaha.
5. book GP consultation with Miss Chew...

that's all for the school side.

i'm learning a lot about myself this week. apparently people see me differently from what i see myself as. maybe thats why sometimes i get misunderstood.
just to clear a few things up
1 not talking to you does NOT equal arrogance
yes haha that was a big problem as stated by royston hahaha
inside joke inside joke
2 competiviteness is in me, i can't help it, even if i might go over board.

oh yes i've seen Stardust =D
its so good. so good i'd watch it again!
the enchanting tale of love
i'm SUCH a sucker for it.

my thoughts are always so scattered, like all posts.
but they're put in chunks so to understand.
yeah haha =D

ever been so dazzled by concern?

You keep me safe in a crazy world.
10:16 a.m.

its been ages since the last post
so its time for a new one!

pw's over.
promos are over.
school's out. (but not entirely...the 9nov to 22nov stretch is coming soon)

listenting.
its a gift.
an awesome one.
if you can get anyone to listen to you in turn.
awesome awesome.
right.

zan's not home yet...and its already 11pm...
and there's this big rainstorm(lighting, thunder, rain, the works) outside...
i pray he'll be safe.
and will be back soon.
worried...
AND HE'S GOT NO PHONE! ARGH!

youth alpha's over.
mm will miss those saturday nights at 79

miss my cell at the same time in church.
and i cant go for retreat )= (i'm sure delwyn will miss me more!)
oh well...at least my cellmates are fine even though i havent been to cell in MONTHS.

i don't really know what to type tonight.
just caught up in stuff i guess???
nah not really.
i'm just being verrrrry lazzzzzy at this point of time.

my aunt and cousin are in town from canada!
will be here for abt 2 months.

things i NEED (need vic NEED) to do:
plan study timetable for holiday (yes i know i know.....)
EXERCISE! (2days x 2.4km under 13 mins, 1day x 4km under 25 mins in a week)
play rugby!!!! (must must must)
read the BIBLE daily (MUST!)
work on The Wish. yes...must.
that's all...for now.

its a pretty disjointed post eh?

i remember what i was doing last year at this time...
talking on the phone and wishing the birthday boy happy birthday at 12.
and we went out this day 4 nov.
right.
gosh this is like so passe.

*Julian* {Free} Content. says (11:23 PM):
ah yes
*Julian* {Free} Content. says (11:23 PM):
i remember too
*Julian* {Free} Content. says (11:23 PM):
4th nov
*Julian* {Free} Content. says (11:23 PM):
u practically threw jer and i aside for gareth
victoria. change the in, change the out. says (11:23 PM):
no.
*Julian* {Free} Content. says (11:23 PM):
yeah
*Julian* {Free} Content. says (11:23 PM):
lol

hahaha ah well. passe passe.

i hope my brother gets home safe.
will be going...

You keep me safe in a crazy world.
11:01 p.m.