not again! its like trying to ward off bees with a flower's sweet smell the song "why can't we be friends" comes to mind again. but in a different context. can you take the distance?
*gasp* *gasp* and once more *gasp* the air is so hard to grasp
PUZZLE BOBBLE: the new craze in school haha! ready....GO
draw me nearer to You, nearer to You fill my life with Your presence, the way You want till my soul is ablaze, each and everyday draw me nearer, nearer to You
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 9:53 p.m.
scribbles/ Sunday, October 21, 2007
i don't like this, i don't like this, i don't like this the rivalry the gossip the talk we're been together since FOREVER why can't we all just get along the song "why can't we be friends" seems appropriate i mean i don't know why we have to go through this almost...every year?? every once in a while or just whenever. well i'm still hopefully things will work out. still hopeful.
there's a capacity to which one can love that's what i learnt last night its actually kinda true. you can't exactly love the whole world at the same time because it takes hard work just to love like one friend or two or three. that's the sad thing i guess, the limit to how much one person can love. that's why all of us need to love one another!! having great friends that love you would be assuring haha maybe because someday they might die for you? i don't know haha yup.
its amazing. Jesus has never been challenged when he said he is the one and only true God and that there are no other gods before him. No one has ever challenged this status. like wow. today i was really mmm what's the word...jolted by the sermon in church today Jesus: the Alpha and Omega - first and last, beginning and the end. the almighty and everlasting God. =) with Him NOTHING is impossible hahaha (adidas) then this question was asking: have we forsaken the Lord in our thoughts, actions and devotions? forsaken - to renounce or turn away from entirely, abandon, desert sometimes i guess. especially when im busy and tired. those are the most testing times. but still, i pray. Pray Until Something Happens haha its amazing. qi gave a testimony yesterday abt her how busy she's been throughout the week and all and she's just super busy and she needs to finish deadlines and all and work on the wedding video pic presentation thingy too. and she really prayed in the middle of it all and everything just finished so quickly for her that week haha. and she said "pray because it really really works" yup =) oh yeah and congrats to Theresa and Weiming who got married yesterday haha, i love the wedding photos, they're so natural and not the conventional ones. they were just meant for each other, may God bless their new lives together =)
back to sch tmr. pw. pw. and more pw. =) i enjoy it partially because of the freedom and class bonding and stuff. but still...pw. ugh. hahaha i have fun with my friends still =)
RWC: SOUTH AFRICA WON!!! but boring game...all penalties. oh well. test of endurance.
total promotional jc1 results on 25 oct or 26 can't remember. i want all of you guys to promote! just don't worry. SMILE =)
such a random random post. thoughts just overflow.
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 9:19 p.m.
scribbles/ Saturday, October 13, 2007
i had to sleep this all over because yesterday was too overwhelming. just couldn't blog about it so soon.
can you imagine all your friends, close friends, having the POSSIBILITY (i said possibility) of leaving you? it means you cant see them everyday anymore in school, or at cca, or tell them "I CAN'T BELIEVE AUS AND NZ LOST!" or give them a dose of your own lameness everyday so they'd laugh and laugh =)
yesterday we checked our scripts for the promo exams.
for me, i really thank God for pulling me through because i wouldn't have the capability to study that much without his help and guidence. like really. those who know me, you know how playful i am (hello the 2 weeks before promos i was playing rugby haha we all were with the guys because i started =D) and really, the discipline to sit down everyday in school to skip lunch, eat at breaks, being called a "mugger" (don't worry you're forgiven) , and just studying and studying. and...i got promoted well.
i'm not exactly real high or anything that i got promoted. i mean i'm happy, yes i'm happy i'm promoting, really thank God for all the help.
but what about my friends?
i don't wanna write something here saying "i'm gonna miss you sooo much if you go" because i DON'T want them to go. its a big IF. they've still got h2 math and overall results. i'll be praying for you guys. BUT make the right decision, don't stay because...you love me too much, okay kidding. stay because you'll put in that effort for the As and i'll be right behind you (forcing you to be a "mugger" like me, then when we all are there will be no one to say "mugger" anymore!)
joelyn was crying and i didn't know how to handle it. ah i'm just very upset. timo was all in high spirits but you could tell he wasn't that happy either. david and felix too. brig's waiting for math and is worried.
all the people who bring life into SR and make me wanna stay might not promote with me. tell me how do handle this?!
last night i was tearing because of what joelyn wrote in her blog: VICTORIA u're the first person tht came to mind. VIC!!! i know u really really want us all to be promoted. i know how upset u are. i'll really miss u. i'll miss the bickering. i'll miss the laughter. i'll miss the fun. i really really will. we wont get to see each other often if she promotes and i dont. we could still hang out though. unless vic doesnt want me anymore. awwww. i feel like im gonna cry. without u, it wont be the same. vic was really sweet today. she made me this during pw lecture. and she was like " dont cry okay!" hahas.
i was all emo and i cried during break. and i told vic hw im gonna miss her and all and she was like " NO! NO! NO!" the whole time she was like tht. im happy victoria passed her CLB essay. im happy vic's gonna get promoted. im just sad i might nt be able to promote with her. who is she gonna ask when she needs help with her CLB? who is gonna help her do her much dreaded lian xi? vic was like telling me nt to cry in sch just now but the moment rachel and miko came up to me i couldnt hold back the tears alr. i was hugging rachel and crying at the same time. like im just really really sad. its kinda like graduation day 2006 all over again. just tht im gonna miss different people right now. i wanna give victoria a really big hug for some reason, it seems like im gonna miss victoria the most. ARGH! the agony... the pain...
i don't know what i'd do without you guys!!! i think i'll miss joelyn and timo the most. (keep in mind i don't want them to go)
joelyn if you go who am i gonna ask when i need help with my CLB? who is gonna help me do my much dreaded lian xi? WHO?! i guess i can ask hui jia, but i wouldn't be the same. who else can i tell to go to a shoe sale at vivo! who is gonna be there to tell me about soccer (even when im totally uninterested haha =D) who is gonna tolerate my lame comments i'll be stranded, alone. left to rot in SR for another year. love you, babe =) if you don't stay (nonono!!!), we must have daily/monthly/yearly gatherings! must!!! if not... sry no if not. MUST!
timo i've knew you like since MI haha one of the first guys i met. but you really have brought life into this journey in SR. studying wouldn't be studying without you! and cockroaches would come and find ME instead of YOU. nights would be boring because no lame phones calls trying to scare me haha! no one can do the booty dance as well as you hahaha! no one is as gay/childish/FUN! as you =) okay you're NOT gay who would chase me around the pillars at city hall or school if you're gone? who would try and take my book from my hands and make me chase you hahaha who would make me understand chem?! timo mo mo emo =) another on that i MUST MUST meet up with!
ah i need to pack for youth leaders retreat at sentosa. there's a sun shower now, its beautiful =) [means its all sunny with nice rain] it's gonna be alright today. i'll be in sentosa from today will sunday afternoon so don't expect me online.
i don't know what to feel.
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 9:58 a.m.
scribbles/ Thursday, October 11, 2007
i'm in a lovey dovey mood tonight... maybe because i just finished watching music and lyrics! haha. and i'm listening to lovely dovely songs too hahaha...
ah what's wrong with me! hahaha just kidding, i'm perfectly sane.
love love love.
hearts, roses and red.
Jars of Clay - Loves Me Like You comes to mind haha
promos are FINALLY over. as in TODAY was the math retake. gosh haha. but its okay i guess.
RUGBY(training) TMR!!! FINALLY hahaha yay =D
tmr we'll be getting all our promo exam scripts back. hope everyone promotes! i know they all will. we'll be checking the scripts haha. i'm sure i've done okay =)
mm i don't know what else to say haha
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 8:52 p.m.
scribbles/ Sunday, October 07, 2007
you know what, i realise that each picture on my blog skin all are times of me with church ppl haha like picture no.1, me with short hair haha was named "hot vic" buy mel and sher hahaha. this was during church camp, was it 2 years back?? i forgot. anyway, they styled my hair, made me up, invaded my face and took a picture haha. and i was wearing my (i miss it SOO much) adidas sweater which i lost. oh well... anyway =) there's gonna be church camp this year =D i CANNOOOOT WAIIIIT.
picture no.2 is when i was close to the jy bunch. gosh i miss them. i remember when caleb, sam, ivan and merrilyn would come over to my place to play badminton/netball etc. haha i remember when i was sick and they call came up to console me haha. this pic was taken outside alcinda's place haha. again taken by sher. and when we were waiting for sher i think nic and al were talking abt wedges (shoes) and i thought they were talking about food -_-...aww well. and this was the first time i saw such a big cool house hahaha the elevator opens to you're door step. BUT! nothing is better than Marang Road. first love =) my home.
no.3, the one at the vege cafe outside church haha. again another sher pic haha. like the purple strips haha. mmm not much history behind this one. but i guess i just have to say that i miss church. not that i don't go to church but i miss it so much. now everything's at 79. and i don't have the time to study in church anymore like before, or have breakfast in the morning with the bunch, or be with my CG on sat nights...its because i'm at 79 doing Youth Alpha haha =). i miss it all but sometimes you have to do what you have to do =) and youth alpha's been amazing.
the last pic was taken...years back haha. when i was the pres of the jy comm, long ago. this was testing out a game for trailblazers our event for the p6s. i miss being in the jy comm too =) with sam and the rest. the cool dudes hahaha. did sam's captain's ball with a chicken ever come through?? haha when he left i was kinda upset but, God called him =) so i'm sure he's doing okay now studying at ttc. we had to test out this peanut butter game and the aim was to get as much macaroni on the person's face by throwing haha! and i was the tester because no one wanted to be!! haha and yes sher took this too. mel and nic were my 'facialists' hahaha. ahh miss it, miss it all.
you guys rock =)
gosh its late. church tmr heh =)
AND AUSTRALIA LOST TO ENGLAND 10-12!!!!! nooooo!!! haha i'll get over it.
night.
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 12:00 a.m.
scribbles/ Friday, October 05, 2007
=D haha you're never fully dressed without a SMILE!! singing when no ones at home haha!
PROMOS ARE OVER BABY! haha they were over for me yesterday haha my friends end today haha
its really been worth the effort. the lunches, the time, haha. yay. and being called a "mugger" -_-. AND THE BEFORE PROMO RUGBY haha =D now we've a few j1 guys to play with haha but we'll miss the j2 ruggers too much: all the best for the As!
so many exciting things that are gonna happen after hahaha 1. OUTBREAK's moving forward! 2. Church camp! 3. RUGBBBBYYY WORLD CUP!!! FINALS (quarter, semi and final) 4. SCC rugby 7s invitational haha going with brig =D (surprised her this morning with the pass for the m1 box) 5. promo results! 6. parties.
