i take your pains i hear your cries i see what you do to yourself and the shardes pierce my heart
if only you could hear or see the blood that streams out of me but you never will you only know you only know
the times you stab me, plenty. the occasions it hurts, a lot. the wounds never patch up
hear my cry and patch me up before its too late before my blood runs out before i ooze to death.
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 10:54 p.m.
scribbles/ Saturday, July 21, 2007
sometimes i am quite hesitant to post because of some reasons... however i still post.
this week's been really busy. mmm full of angst? haha. and real fun. played basketball and all haha friday evening/night was the best haha. and today i was at 79 the whole day cleaning the place up and all. awesome. awesome.
"all you want is fresh water when all you have is the sea." - James
haha incridible insight. don't we all just wish and yearn for that.
its getting late. church tmr. lots of stuff to do...
Work To Be Done: 1) WR section on effects of contributions on OW 2) chem practical task 2 3) chem assignment chemical bonding 4) math functions tutorial 5) gp forum posting
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 11:05 p.m.
scribbles/ Tuesday, July 17, 2007
ah food. its always there when you need it. in good and in the bad.
this week is insanely packed with lots of stuff going on. its exhausting just thinking about it. oh well.
To be or not to be - Hamlet To be or not to be, that is the question; Whether 'tis nobler in the mind to suffer The slings and arrows of outrageous fortune, Or to take arms against a sea of troubles, And by opposing, end them. To die, to sleep; No more; and by a sleep to say we end The heart-ache and the thousand natural shocks That flesh is heir to — 'tis a consummation Devoutly to be wish'd. To die, to sleep; To sleep, perchance to dream. Ay, there's the rub, For in that sleep of death what dreams may come, When we have shuffled off this mortal coil, Must give us pause. There's the respect That makes calamity of so long life, For who would bear the whips and scorns of time, Th'oppressor's wrong, the proud man's contumely, The pangs of despised love, the law's delay, The insolence of office, and the spurns That patient merit of th'unworthy takes, When he himself might his quietus make With a bare bodkin? who would fardels bear, To grunt and sweat under a weary life, But that the dread of something after death, The undiscovered country from whose bourn No traveller returns, puzzles the will, And makes us rather bear those ills we have Than fly to others that we know not of? Thus conscience does make cowards of us all, And thus the native hue of resolution Is sicklied o'er with the pale cast of thought, And enterprises of great pitch and moment With this regard their currents turn awry, And lose the name of action.
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 8:19 p.m.
scribbles/ Monday, July 16, 2007
i just feel like the life is being sucked out of me day by day. there's always something to do. i'll be free for this and not for that. i'll be doing everything. when will this stop. when will this stop. everyday there's something. EVERYDAY. rest isn't even in the picture. i need a revival. rejuvenation. a stop. struggle. everyday. i am not a mugger. all of you just don't understand. ALL. talking is good. emotionally dead though. i'm just so tired. what's new right. juggling friends, church, school, outside stuff. stop stop. STOP. why do i beat myself up like this. i don't know. time to hit the court/track.
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 9:57 p.m.
scribbles/ Monday, July 09, 2007
Dear friend, hey. i probably haven't said this to you in a long time. ironic isn't it. let me just cut to the chase here. you don't know how worried i am about you now. just now i couldn't eat in peace. why are you doing this to yourself? why? i don't understand. i want to but i just don't. i know i don't. i've always been worried about you since i don't know when. we grew up together. we spent lots of moments together. you made me where i am now but you've gone away from that place. why? i don't know. exaclty, i don't know! that's how far we've strayed. maybe the occasional "hi"s and "bye"s but not like before, having indepth conversations. i don't know if you're really happy or not. like really. tsk. i feel so helpless right now because i don't know what to do. i'll really be praying for you. everyday. its just worrying. people have been asking about you. come back!...please. i'm so busy i can't even talk to you or go out. its just not fair. i'm sorry if i've invoked jealousy or anything in you. i don't know. maybe before. i don't know if you'll ever read this, but whatever it is, i'll be here. He'll always be there. love, your friend, victoria
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 7:18 p.m.
scribbles/ Sunday, July 08, 2007
calling out to all GMC YFs and YAs: are you bringing a friend for youth alpha??? starting: 28th July 2007 @ Space 79/79A You know what to do =D!
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 2:52 p.m.
scribbles/ Friday, July 06, 2007
drained. physically, mentally, emotionally. when will all this end? perhaps its all part of the plan, unrevealed, unknown.
why? the question we all ask. why? "because we chose this path." like WE chose it. maybe.
whisk me away, to a place where all is calm again. pillow willow! again I embrace you tonight.
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 10:13 p.m.
scribbles/ Sunday, July 01, 2007
Where The Love Lasts Forever Hillsong
Your mercy found me, Upon the broken road, And lifted me beyond my failing,
Into Your glory, My sin and shame dissolved, And now forever Yours I'll stand.
(Pre-Chorus) In love never to end, To call You more than Lord, Glorious friend.
(Chorus) So I throw my life upon all You are, 'Cause I know You gave it all for me, And when all else fades, My soul will dance with You, Where the love lasts forever.
Your mercy found me, Upon the broken road, And lifted me beyond my failing,
Into Your glory, My sin and shame dissolved, And now forever Yours I'll stand.
(Bridge) And forever I will sing, Lord forever I will sing, Of how You gave Your life away, Just to save me, Lord You saved me.
With You, where the love lasts forever.
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 11:22 p.m.
ah A Knight's Tale... nothing like watching Heath Ledger give the ever-famous smooch at the end hahaha Heath Ledger has ALWAYS been the hottest. next to Ashton Kucther but that's a totally different subject haha. 10 Things I Hate About You and A Knight's Tale wouldn't be what they are without him haha!
gosh a movie is making me all woozy.
oh yes i was about to discuss the issue of blogging this afternoon. why blog? seriously why? people just come and read about your life/interests/whatever or no one might even read anything! ha! well the amazing thing is people read, and i'm just guessing here, because they want to know more maybe or perhaps they're just blog surfing and want to pass by an interesting enough blog. but anyway, what does the content matter to you? you readers. oh yes maybe you are concerned, yes maybe. mmm and yes some bloggers write because they want to be noticed and they want the whole world to see who and who, so and so did what and what to him and her and me and bla bla bla, all that jazz. how sappy. others write just for the sake of it. no intention no meaning. just writing. text may sound vague as these bloggers write because they don't have any intention what so ever for readers to know. they just want it to be...out. interesting eh? well that's the world of blogging for you in these few few lines. in my perspective of course. but do correct me if i'm wrong because impulse does have certain feelings involved that might not occur in future. alright then =)
ah lovely day =)
my body's killing but so what? hahaha counterpain, massages, ice and pain be gone!
