scribbles/ Friday, December 01, 2006
today wasn't a very eventful day. i woke up...wanting to go to the gym but my body just wouldn't budge haha! mmm i guess i was just tired from yesterday.
Lets start with yesterday.
I
got up and travelled to various places and various people's houses...
just to collect a $100 from them for the netball umpiring course. So i
left the house at around 11:30am and i reached lingling's doorstep at 11:45am haha good timing (i climbed a whole 16 flights of steps to get to the 8th floor. i didn't see the lift -_-) and then i headed to tiong bahru
reaching at 12pm! obviously the rest who were suppose to meet were
late. but its okay they weren't that late, just a few minutes. i metcarmen and shu wen there and after i collected the money from them i headed off to chua chu kang. these long train rides give me motion sickness...and i was seriously about to puke in the mrt but i didn't thank God. when i reached CCK i had to wait SO LONG for jermaine at the lrt platform before i got the $100 from her. after that i went all the way back to tiong bahru to take a bus to emily's
place. i had to walk there when i got off the bus stop and then i went
to her door step to collect the money. AND i used the lift. if i
climbed the 13 floors...hookay...
when i FINALLY got back home at
3 i rested a while and then showered at 3:45. was suppose to go out and
watch happy feet but in the end we watched flags of our fathers. it was
quite interesting. in the beginning it was a little...mmm boring but it
got quite meaningful to the end. i slept before the movie even started
because i was just so tired from all the travelling. well at least i
didn't sleep through the movie. last night i almost went over to my
friend's place to teach him how to roller bladehaha! well almost until he said never mind. he was asking me how to fall hahaha and i was telling him i forgot...=D i really forgot! sorry hahaha.
today! i woke up...lazed around a little but i got up at 10am. i made 2 lists today. one was the Christmas presents shopping list and the other was a clothes shopping list. for some reason my Christmas list this year is...shorter? is that good? well i don't know. it seems i've really narrowed it down this year. oh yes there's also a birthday list on the present list haha for all those birthday presents that i owe or have to give. oh yes and i packed all my stuff today and my nike drum bag still has space haha
amazing. i made another list again of what to bring to Bangkok so i
wouldn't be all undecided of what to bring. organisation is always good
haha.
today i finished the whole carton of grapefruit juice to sustain myself till lunch haha. and then i couldn't take it so i had 2 hash browns. and then daddy came home saying he wanted to go to Carl's junior...and i went like 2 days ago with nic and sam.
so daddy DROVE THE CAR down to vivo haha and we had Carl's junior burgers haha. at vivo we had a really fun time haha. my brother and i. oh yes my brother made me fall on my butt today. it was funny until it really hurt haha.
my brother and i were like kids fighting in the shopping mall. i was
hitting him because he was being an idiot trying to irritate me.haha =D it was just so funny. =) i'd give anything to have another day like that haha. all of us were just having fun haha my dad, sis (although she was abit of a pain), my bro and i =D. when i came back i ended up watching "whose line is it anyway" for about an hour or so... notice i'm not saying "PRINCESS HOURS" hahaha
...then i painted my nails all dark blue. its okay. well my nails are
longer than before... too long. had like chicken noodle for dinner and
a piece of pizza. i realise these daysi'm not really eating properly.
but i just don't feel like eating. all the fruits i used to love eating
every afternoon are all gone. and my mum doesn't really stock up much
now. sigh. oh wellhaha.
tmr i going to be a little hectic. i have to drop my shu wen's place at 10am to give her the money for the umpiring course to pass to germaine on Monday. then i've got to go over to carmen's place to had her the umpiring orientation forms and money for her to give to the kallang netball centre office and THEN i have to rush home to get ready to leave the airport. i'll be out of Singapore at 3pm haha. and then i'll be back on the 7th to rest at night and in the morning i'll be off to Port Dickson in Malaysia and i'll be back on the 11th afternoon and in the night i'll have to go for the umpiring course. man. that is tiring. well everything will work out.
today's post is quite messy. i just wrote about everything in huge chuncks. well who cares.
these few days i've been realising a lot of things.
firstly, i'm quite a satisfied person. i'm
very satisfied with what i have in my life and i rarely complain about
what i don't have or what a teenager should have or some bullshit like
that.i'm content with what i have. content with my family. content with who i am. everything is just perfect. to me haha. i might see and want something but the want will eventually die out and even though i want something (maybe badly) i'll still be happy without it. maybe that's why for presents or whatever i just say "give me anything" because i'll like it no matter what. its the thought that counts.
secondly, i'm a little bit of a mmm i guess you could call me a "daddy's girl". i like to be home early at 10pm if its too early for some people =D haha.
and i pretty much listen to my parents. i rarely lie to them and if i
do i hate it and go all red in the face. i obey their ruleshaha and
follow what they say. well that's what a child should be doing because
they are the parents after all. it was quite sad, like last time i
didn't go out with lots of people just because my parent's didn't allow
me or i just couldn't. i went home after school everyday when others
went outhaha. but i guess i like it =D. i'm used to it. i have to like
"report" to my parents before and after i go out. well, i do all this
willingly and without complains.hahaha i'm weird i know. but i just like it.
thirdly,
i put others first before myself most of the time. well i usually do.
and most of the time without even considering myself. i can just give
up a position just to let someone else be happy andi'll be happy for
them. sometimes its good but sometimes its a little bad. because if you
give too much, you might just miss what might or could have been yours.
but don't get me wrong, its never bad to give a lot and you should not
think twice before giving but give willingly and with a loving heart.
NEVER think of how things will benefit yourself. but still you must
know that you cannot give in to people all the time, you must know the
limit.
lastly, i have a lot of anger inside of me even though i don't show it. my anger usually triggers off at home or when i'm with my family haha. ironic huh? angry around the people you love. will i hate it. i hate the hate. sometimes...i cry to myself after i've displayed anger towards my family members. yeah haha. but i just don't know why. they just...make me angry. there's just so many things haha its quite hard to understand but i mean its what i've realised. with my friends i'm always always happy. because i'm just so happy to be with them. so so happy. that's why im rarely ever angry at them haha.this is all i have to say for today... wow haha that's quite long hahaha but yea. when i have the time i'll post this long.
the next few posts should be about the upcoming holiday i'm having and PLUNGE youth camp haha! yay =D. let the fun begin! OH OH i'm going to watch SAW III in Bangkok when i'm there! those who aren't 21 and want to watch it BE JEALOUS! haha okay i'm kidding but i am going to watch it haha. yup well... till next time!
You keep me safe in a crazy world.
9:19 p.m.
