55 more mins till new year =D... i'm really sooo excited for the new year to come haha. i've never been this excited. well maybe because so many exciting and awesome things are happening next year like POST CAMP!!! and UNDIGNIFIED!!! haha and i'm moving up to YF next year and i'll be attending MI for the first 3 months and i'll be training with the netball team already...*breath* hahaha. well reflecting on last year...it was great haha. there were the highs and lows. the really highs and really lows. flings and whatever things...i'm so not making sense right now. mm oh well haha. well the year 2006 has been great and i really thank God for pulling me through and always being there for me haha. i couldn't attend tonight's watch night service so i typed my testimony that i wanted to give and emailed it to Sam so he could read it for me at the service haha. yaya =). i'll post it here right now(keep in mind that i was suppose to be at the service saying this):
"Well I don't really know how to start but I'll try. I'm sorry I'm not actually at the watch night service saying this to you guys but at least I've got someone to read it for me to you all.
This year I really want to thank God for all he's done in my life. In friendships,school. My CCA (netball), the O Levels, basically everything. For bringing me through all the struggles I've faced in every ares of my life. I truly thank Him for being there for me and seeing me through.
Firstly, During the O level examinations period I was literally freaking out. Its not that I didn't study hard enough or that I didn't have enough confidence in myself to do the papers. My problem at that time was where would I go after the O's. I really didn't know what I would do or where I would go. When I talked to my friends, they seemed to know exactly where they want to go and what they wanted to do in life, all expect for me. So I prayed to God everyday in hopes that He might help me to figure out what to do. After the O's, everything started to kind of fall into place. My decision whether to get into a JC/Millenia Institute (a Centralized Institute) got clearer. You see when you come out of secondary school you have the option to go to JC or Poly. And I decided that I wanted to get into a JC or a Centralized Institute. And what was even more of a blessing was I found out that my dad wants to send me overseas to Canada to study when I reach at least 18. Thank God everything worked out =D.
Secondly, I thank God for the PLUNGE YOUTH CAMP 2006! Woo! Haha. It was a great youth camp. It was a life changing experience. I'm sure it must have been for all the plunge camp youths! During camp, it was truly amazing how God worked in everyone. For me, camp was awesome. I really like the fact that everyday/night something happened that helped us focus more on God and to just ignore all the things of the world for just that moment. I don't know if I'm making sense... for example the night when the electricity was down and we didn't exactly have a perfect sound system or when the rain came and all of us didn't shower before overnight worship. I'm just saying that we got to focus more on God this camp. I have never felt this happy in my life after this camp because I know that God is always here for me and I took that plunge for Him. I've rededicated my life back to Him and I'm SO glad. I really thank God for allowing me to experience Him at camp this year. The day after church camp I woke up that morning and gave up on line piracy. I deleted every bit of downloaded music I had on my computer. For those close to me, you should know how music is kind of a big part of my life but God just wanted me to let it go. And so i did! I feel so happier now that I have given it up. It was my commitment to God that I would give my life to Him from then on.
I just want all of you to remember that God is and always will be with you. He will never leave you nor forsake you. Even when you think He isn't there, He is. Always there to listen to you. What I'm saying here is simple, God is always with you so never feel alone or unloved because He is there.
That's it. =D. Have a happy new year you guys! I pray God will bless year 2007!"
haha well yup that's what i wanted to say. the two big events! oh yes and the people, my friends and just everyone who's been there for me through any point of time in my life, i thank you guys SOOO much. all little blessings haha. what has inspired me the most this year are the people around me. they might not know who they are but... well thanks for inspiring me haha. 2006 has been a life changing year. =)
i pray God will bless the new year to come =D! and all of you have a wonderful NEW YEAR! yay! hahaha. happy 2007....in 40 mins...
before i go, i shall make a few resolutions: 1) try and get rid of anger 2) make more effort to strengthen r/s with God 3) quit being a pushover (this brings over from last year) 4) make an effort to not lose contact with friends 5) work out more often (i don't think that will be a problem with all the netball training....) 6) build better r/s with family members....(esp sister) 7) work on loud voice. 8) be more of an encouragment to others 9) wake up early for JY on sunday EVEN THOUGH i don't have to anymore 10) use strengths to serve
as you can see i'm just typing out whatever i can think of...well...they'll be more along the way but i know 2007 will be sooo much more different. =D. that's all for now. happy new year guys.
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 10:58 p.m.
scribbles/ Thursday, December 28, 2006
let me just start from the 19th of December.
19 Dec '06, tuesday - outram netball camp. seniors were invited back and we had a BLAST! but we didn't get to plunge into the pool though. - MI training was canceled the next morning due to bad weather that night. - my whole body was still aching from training on monday - all of us seniors who stayed over talked till 5am in the morning about everything haha. its fun catching up =D. - all of us cramped into a small sofa, 5 black backless chairs, 2 couches and a roller chair. haha it was...not very comfortable haha but in the morning 3 of them left so we had MORE SPACE. - cheryl, meifang and i were left and we went back early...the next day on the 20th. - i was complaining too much about breakfast..he he. - the juniors are crazy haha they did some performance for us. man hahaha. its like they were high or something.
20 Dec '06, wednesday - woke up in school. - left early - went home - SLEPT. (thats all i remember) - maybe i woke up for dinner? - i don't know.
21 Dec '06, thursday - i went for jy comm retreat at wenai's place! - first i took an mrt to farrer park and lost my way when i came out. - i took 30 mins to reach wenai's place. don't ask why. - got there and sam, wenai and i started to watch cartoons in the morning. justice league and then the winx club or something. - when sam lee came, the 4 of us went for lunch haha. we had turtle soup and a bee dropped into it. ewww haha but all of us drank it. not bad actually. - went back and ivan arrived. - i went back home again to get all my clothes so that i could stay over at wenai's place. - came back and sherylene and clifton arrived. - they already started on the bible study. - so i quickly joined in before it ended. - it was about DESIRE. the desire for God. - after we did a reflection sheet and we shared with each other our answers to the questions like our strengths, weaknessess etc. - it was fantastic haha - dinner was good too haha - we continued to share - then all of us prayed for one another =) - and then! nic, clifton and i had to learn the hokkien caroling songs from sam lee hahaha that was...exciting. - he went back and we started to plan out the events for next year. its gonna be a blast for the jy's next year and they don't even know it hahaha - i had training the next morning so i had to sleep early. - they were playing hillsong united latest cd so i wanted to stay up to watch the dvd haha. we finished watching it and then i went to bed. this was around 2am. they slept at 3.
22 Dec '06, friday - woke up early. - woke the guys up because they wanted to have a dip in the pool in the morning. - and guess what....it was SO COLD hahaha it rained like the night before and while they were freezing in the pool it drizzled. they went to the indoor jacuzzi afterwords and i left for training. - thank God i wasn't late. - training was good today haha because now im used to it and not like aching all over. - except for my thighs......they HURT real bad. - the next few days i couldn't walk up steps properly - after training i went with the bunch to kfc to eat haha =) - it was real funny and interesting...i told julian about it yesterday hahaha he was..."amused" - after training and lunch i went home to SLEEP. - from 2pm - 7:30pm - i woke up and realised i was late for Ryan's Christmas Potluck Party -
i will blog another day. i don't feel like it anymore. don't ask why.
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 12:04 p.m.
scribbles/ Wednesday, December 20, 2006
10 songs you should listen to these next few days/weeks/months/whenever...
1. Belief - Gavin Degraw 2. One - Mary J Blige feat. U2 3. More Than Words - Extreme 4. Hanging By A Moment - Lifehouse 5. Drive - Incubus 6. Brown Sugar - Mos Def and Faith Evans 7. You're All I Have - Snow Patrol 8. Rain Down - Delirious? 9. I Miss You - Aaliyah 10. Shake - Ying Yang Twins
there's a little of everything in this list. i just decided to put it down here just for the fun of it. the "must hear" ones are at the top haha. yup =)
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 4:16 p.m.
Extreme - More Than Words
i just love this song. the original is just so much better. enjoy =D.
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 2:37 p.m.
scribbles/ Monday, December 18, 2006
my hands are like quivering now. even while typing. had netball training this morning. and i vomited halfway. but after that i felt so much better! gosh i'm SO tired. i guess its because i haven't trained for a long time. oh and now i've realised where my appetite came from. i used to be able to eat lots but during the holidays i've just lost my appetite. today after training i was SO HUNGRY. yup haha. later. i wanna sleep.
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 1:46 p.m.
scribbles/ Sunday, December 17, 2006
pictures of the past couple of days/weeks...
outside Al's place. look into the mirror
PLUNGE Youth Camp 2006! i took the PLUNGE!
team Shadow Palm
WA SA!!!
China Pangs(punks) united
Mel's Birthday dinner. nic and i
all the birthday guests in black and white
the birthday girl and i (familiar dress???)
awesome moments =D.
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 2:16 p.m.
scribbles/ Saturday, December 16, 2006
today i woke up at 1pm... AGAIN. =D hahaha now i understand why people call me a pig... hehe. i got up, went on the com for a while, did my QT, went to shower. nic was waiting for me in my room haha and i was singing the song 'Romans 16:19' hahaha and she yelled over "vic! i can hear you singing!" hahaha i couldn't hear what she was saying until i came out of the shower. today we went out to Bugis. first we went to Bugis Street haha where all the stuff's like dirt cheap. nic wanted to get the pair of red heels we saw the other day when we were out with jo. so she got it! haha we spent quite a while looking for the same shop but eventually we found it after combing the whole place and realising it was at the far end. afterwards, we met alcinda haha! she was carrying luke's amp because luke left it with her. i don't know why but it was with her. i helped her carry the amp because both nic and her were carrying stuff. alcinda wanted to get a pair of converse shoes for school so we were looking for that too. al bought heels too but they were black ones. quite similar to nic's but they were shorter. we crossed over to bugis junction, ate a little, and found a converse shop. they didn't have al's shoe size! again! haha because she went to vivo to look for a pair but they didn't have size 6. they only had 5 half. then we took an mrt to wisma and waited for sherylene to pick us up at the taxi stand. i was humiliated at the taxi stand! hahaha here's what happened. al: nic, have you ever tired wedges? nic: ya i've tried a pair before vic(not hearing what nic said): oh you know when we stopped at (some place in malaysia) i bought a whole box of wedges to eat! i'm shocked you've never had wedges before. al: i'm talking about shoes! nic: vic!!!! al, nic, vic: hahahahaha vic: i didn't know! nic: deprived girl... al: NOOB! hahaha see the humiliation i went through hahaha. we stopped outside al's place. gosh the place just looks so posh and it really looks like some club house. there was a refrigerator with drinks that could be just taken for free and we took as escalator up to her doorstep. the door opened to her house it was just so amazing. her house looks really zen from the inside and her room's just amazing. tonight nic and luke are staying over and coming to church with al tomorrow. i wanted to stay over but i have things to do tonight. came home... and i had SALMON STEAK for dinner. damn it was good haha with scallops, whipped potato and broccoli. damn good haha. my dad cooked everything haha. zan my dad and i were practically scarfing down our food haha. well i've just showered and all. that's pretty much today haha.
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 9:14 p.m.
scribbles/ Friday, December 15, 2006
i'm talking to julian on the phone now haha that crazy bugger as you can SEE from the tags on my tag board... today was a umm not really eventful day but still it was good =D. i got up...at 1pm again haha with 3 missed calls from nic and a msg saying "you wanna go cycling" haha she also asked me out to lunch with kev but i just woke up haha and i planned to clean the house today. and i did! amazingly. the last time i said i would i ended up lazing around at home. i cleaned up the whole mess on the dining table in the living room today and in my dad's office a little of my table. you know after the o's you study so much you don't realise you've left everything everywhere around the house in a big mess. well all of my books were all cluttred on the table and it was just unsightly. so now its all cleared up. haha my mum told me a while back something that made me laugh. mum: vic, the christmas tree is on the floor now. you know why? because of all your books on the table! so when are you planning to clean it all up? vic: hahaha i've already planned to this week. mum: okay. you better. vic: okay. hahaha it was just so funny so today when she got home i was like "look mummy the christmas tree is ON the table now. so everyone can see it." hahahah julian is asking me if he will wait for years for his birthday present and i replied mayyybee =D hehehe. mmm hahaha =D. nowadays, i've been emailing charmaine haha she's my mentor. =D the greatest haha. okay then i'll be having band prac tmr for second service! yay haha its always fun to be in church haha and preparing for worship and all. will be doing production and sound with kev tmr because wendy and david can't make it. mmm can't wait for sunday! haha =) can't wait.
i need to tell you. now.
Matthew 7:7 "Ask and it will be given to you; seek and you will find; knock and the door will be opened for you."
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 11:48 p.m.
scribbles/ Thursday, December 14, 2006
Psalm 34:1-3 "I will praise the Lord at all times; my mouth will continually praise him. I will boast in the Lord; let the oppressed hear and rejoice! Magnify the Lord with me! Let’s praise his name together!"
Freedom We Know - Hillsong
The world turns in all of it ways But I am soul set on a Holy name And when all earth is said and done Still I praise Him
There's no heir to the love that He gives And my broken dreams have a life again In the hope of the risen King Now just praise Him
A mystery unthinkable But He took the fall just to save my soul Now the love is the life I know And on and on and on We sing yeah
Soul set free in the One I love Come on come on And let the whole earth sing in the freedom we know Come on come on and praise Him
So come, come all the lost that is found Let us rise up with a Holy sound All the earth unified as one Just to praise Him
In full view with nothing to hide Like a city on a hill Let goodness shine in the light of the freedom Now let's praise Him
We're gonna dance dance dance in the freedom we know We're gonna dance dance in the freedom we know We're gonna dance dance dance in the freedom we know Because the freedom we know is gonna last forever
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 9:37 p.m.
hey =)
i woke up this morning came to school early and i was still singing and dancing like mad haha i've still got camp fever! hope it never dies. today's musical workshop was quite fun haha especially when we learned how stage kissing goes about haha all the technical stuff. then we rehersed the "Loser" dance too.
today we we're cast our roles. i'm the news reporter/police officer. yup. i have 4 lines as the news reporter in court in the musical and the police officer is just for the dance...yup. unexpected but its okay. congrats to all the people with all the roles =D!
today i went back with royston and mark. royston's such a dear haha when i was sitting outside the dance room in the morning he called out of the blue to ask if i wanted breakfast haha =) so nice haha. more things to be happy about in the day. he's such a nice person to talk to haha and a new believer in Christ =) praise God haha. i was singing to him songs i knew from hillsong after the workshop and stuff as we were walking down the hill.
oh yes the PAE results. as expected i got into MI and got into the science course. and i'm going to be training together with the netball team too for the first 3 months haha cool. and i'll be training with them earlier too because i was invited by MI to train with them next week. yup.
thank God for this wonderful day. so much has happened! we should always be thankful for whatever things he has given us, big or small haha.
i have to tell you this soon but i don't know how to put it. as the days go by it gets harder and harder. especially with how things are now. i should have said this from the begining but i didn't know any better then. the sooner i say this, the less painful it will feel. i know its gonna hurt both ways, for me and you. but its unfair for one to put in so much effort and the other to not.
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 6:25 p.m.
scribbles/ Wednesday, December 13, 2006
hey hey! i'm back! there's just so many things going on nowadays but i'm finally here. well its going to be a quick post because i need a lot of time to sit and type all all the things that has happened so probably on friday i'll do it. one thing i must say is PLUNGE WAS AWESOME and now i can say that i'm a changed person. because i've taken the plunge and have rededicated my life to God. =D. You don't know how happy I am and i've never ever felt this happy in my entire life. well till friday =D!
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 11:29 p.m.
scribbles/ Saturday, December 02, 2006
i'm leaving today! at around 3pm... i'll be out of Singapore by 5pm haha for BANGKOK. oh and i changed my blog skin picture just temporarily for this period of time =D haha i really like the picture. i'll be back on the 7th and then i'll be going for PLUNGE! woohoo haha. i'll just have sooo much to talk about when i get back. well then bon voyage.
You keep me safe in a crazy world. 11:09 a.m.
scribbles/ Friday, December 01, 2006
today wasn't a very eventful day. i woke up...wanting to go to the gym but my body just wouldn't budge haha! mmm i guess i was just tired from yesterday. Lets start with yesterday. I got up and travelled to various places and various people's houses... just to collect a $100 from them for the netball umpiring course. So i left the house at around 11:30am and i reached lingling's doorstep at 11:45am haha good timing (i climbed a whole 16 flights of steps to get to the 8th floor. i didn't see the lift -_-) and then i headed to tiong bahru reaching at 12pm! obviously the rest who were suppose to meet were late. but its okay they weren't that late, just a few minutes. i metcarmen and shu wen there and after i collected the money from them i headed off to chua chu kang. these long train rides give me motion sickness...and i was seriously about to puke in the mrt but i didn't thank God. when i reached CCK i had to wait SO LONG for jermaine at the lrt platform before i got the $100 from her. after that i went all the way back to tiong bahru to take a bus to emily's place. i had to walk there when i got off the bus stop and then i went to her door step to collect the money. AND i used the lift. if i climbed the 13 floors...hookay... when i FINALLY got back home at 3 i rested a while and then showered at 3:45. was suppose to go out and watch happy feet but in the end we watched flags of our fathers. it was quite interesting. in the beginning it was a little...mmm boring but it got quite meaningful to the end. i slept before the movie even started because i was just so tired from all the travelling. well at least i didn't sleep through the movie. last night i almost went over to my friend's place to teach him how to roller bladehaha! well almost until he said never mind. he was asking me how to fall hahaha and i was telling him i forgot...=D i really forgot! sorry hahaha.
today! i woke up...lazed around a little but i got up at 10am. i made 2 lists today. one was the Christmas presents shopping list and the other was a clothes shopping list. for some reason my Christmas list this year is...shorter? is that good? well i don't know. it seems i've really narrowed it down this year. oh yes there's also a birthday list on the present list haha for all those birthday presents that i owe or have to give. oh yes and i packed all my stuff today and my nike drum bag still has space haha amazing. i made another list again of what to bring to Bangkok so i wouldn't be all undecided of what to bring. organisation is always good haha. today i finished the whole carton of grapefruit juice to sustain myself till lunch haha. and then i couldn't take it so i had 2 hash browns. and then daddy came home saying he wanted to go to Carl's junior...and i went like 2 days ago with nic and sam. so daddy DROVE THE CAR down to vivo haha and we had Carl's junior burgers haha. at vivo we had a really fun time haha. my brother and i. oh yes my brother made me fall on my butt today. it was funny until it really hurt haha. my brother and i were like kids fighting in the shopping mall. i was hitting him because he was being an idiot trying to irritate me.haha =D it was just so funny. =) i'd give anything to have another day like that haha. all of us were just having fun haha my dad, sis (although she was abit of a pain), my bro and i =D. when i came back i ended up watching "whose line is it anyway" for about an hour or so... notice i'm not saying "PRINCESS HOURS" hahaha ...then i painted my nails all dark blue. its okay. well my nails are longer than before... too long. had like chicken noodle for dinner and a piece of pizza. i realise these daysi'm not really eating properly. but i just don't feel like eating. all the fruits i used to love eating every afternoon are all gone. and my mum doesn't really stock up much now. sigh. oh wellhaha.
tmr i going to be a little hectic. i have to drop my shu wen's place at 10am to give her the money for the umpiring course to pass to germaine on Monday. then i've got to go over to carmen's place to had her the umpiring orientation forms and money for her to give to the kallang netball centre office and THEN i have to rush home to get ready to leave the airport. i'll be out of Singapore at 3pm haha. and then i'll be back on the 7th to rest at night and in the morning i'll be off to Port Dickson in Malaysia and i'll be back on the 11th afternoon and in the night i'll have to go for the umpiring course. man. that is tiring. well everything will work out.
today's post is quite messy. i just wrote about everything in huge chuncks. well who cares.
these few days i've been realising a lot of things.
firstly, i'm quite a satisfied person. i'm very satisfied with what i have in my life and i rarely complain about what i don't have or what a teenager should have or some bullshit like that.i'm content with what i have. content with my family. content with who i am. everything is just perfect. to me haha. i might see and want something but the want will eventually die out and even though i want something (maybe badly) i'll still be happy without it. maybe that's why for presents or whatever i just say "give me anything" because i'll like it no matter what. its the thought that counts.
secondly, i'm a little bit of a mmm i guess you could call me a "daddy's girl". i like to be home early at 10pm if its too early for some people =D haha. and i pretty much listen to my parents. i rarely lie to them and if i do i hate it and go all red in the face. i obey their ruleshaha and follow what they say. well that's what a child should be doing because they are the parents after all. it was quite sad, like last time i didn't go out with lots of people just because my parent's didn't allow me or i just couldn't. i went home after school everyday when others went outhaha. but i guess i like it =D. i'm used to it. i have to like "report" to my parents before and after i go out. well, i do all this willingly and without complains.hahaha i'm weird i know. but i just like it.
thirdly, i put others first before myself most of the time. well i usually do. and most of the time without even considering myself. i can just give up a position just to let someone else be happy andi'll be happy for them. sometimes its good but sometimes its a little bad. because if you give too much, you might just miss what might or could have been yours. but don't get me wrong, its never bad to give a lot and you should not think twice before giving but give willingly and with a loving heart. NEVER think of how things will benefit yourself. but still you must know that you cannot give in to people all the time, you must know the limit.
lastly, i have a lot of anger inside of me even though i don't show it. my anger usually triggers off at home or when i'm with my family haha. ironic huh? angry around the people you love. will i hate it. i hate the hate. sometimes...i cry to myself after i've displayed anger towards my family members. yeah haha. but i just don't know why. they just...make me angry. there's just so many things haha its quite hard to understand but i mean its what i've realised. with my friends i'm always always happy. because i'm just so happy to be with them. so so happy. that's why im rarely ever angry at them haha.
this is all i have to say for today... wow haha that's quite long hahaha but yea. when i have the time i'll post this long.
the next few posts should be about the upcoming holiday i'm having and PLUNGE youth camp haha! yay =D. let the fun begin! OH OH i'm going to watch SAW III in Bangkok when i'm there! those who aren't 21 and want to watch it BE JEALOUS! haha okay i'm kidding but i am going to watch it haha. yup well... till next time!
