victoria
christian
eighteen
17th May 1990

Psalm 51:12
Restore to me the joy of your salvation
and grant me a willing spirit,
to sustain me.

Proverbs 16:9
In his heart a man plans his course,
but the LORD determines his steps.




BIO 190A Final Exam - 14 Dec 09
Christmas! - 25 December
Back to school - 4 Jan 09

today is a good day! i went to church, went for second service too. the pastos's sermon was on the parable of the lost son. the son who came back after he squandered everything that he had that his father had given to him. and how's older brother was jealous because of the father recieving him back with open arms and throwing a big celebration for his return. the pastor was also talking about the people in prison, how there is God's prescene there. i wonder what it would be like to help them.

today we were shown the new youth centre the church has rented for us youths and it looks super cool!...i told sam i wanted to be in the committee for the youth centre project haha and it will look fab when we're all done!

i played frisbee today too!... gosh its been a long time and i love frisbee..i need to get the hang of the game after the o's so i can be a regular player at west coast every sunday haha they were thinking of playing night ultimate frisbee haha wooo count me in!

sigh...you guys cant see it but im freakin out over the o levels...and maybe even prelim results which are going to come out soon. im very scared, worried and whatever you can imagine. my mum was asking me the other day what if i cant make it to jc.....i was so upset i started breaking chopsticks during dinner as i spoke......
i want to go to a jc. and i want to do well for my o levels. i know my friends will be here for me, i know. but i mean...sigh
and the thing is i was thinking of dsaing or something because of my CCA record and the sportwomen award thing can get me in easily by netball...but i missed the dealine and i was so upset..i felt like i really screwed up...because my marks are not fantastic.
if i dont do well...where will i end up.
i know i shouldnt be thinking this way. =(
im on my own and its the effort that i put in that will decide my result.
i really want to know God's plan for me. what i should do after the o levels.
peopel always ask me "so where are you going to go after the o's, what are you going to do?"
and i might answer something like this "oh i want to go to SAJC. ya..and my dad is probably sending me to canada to study at Malaspina University-College when im 18."
what a big fat lie.
the lie would be that i actually dont know what i want. i dont know what i want to do.
i dont know if im sure.
i dont know.
and the o's are so important.
mmmm

You keep me safe in a crazy world.
8:38 p.m.